I‘m about 60 days in on my Happiness Planner and I have to say my life is transforming right before my eyes. 30 days ago, my life had already improved. I found excitement in small accomplishments. I kept my environment clean and organized and had an almost endless supply of creativity. Those may seem like miniscule things, but remember depression had me trapped in a steel cage. Overcoming mental roadblocks was a huge accomplishment.
At day #58 and I was surprised by the opportunities coming my way. It’s funny how life works. We think of goals and dreams in such a static way; we tend to forget that life is about the flow of the journey.
I can’t believe what has happened in just under 60 days. First, out of the blue, I received an email from a company wanting a yoga teacher for corporate clients. I was excited about the opportunity. I was skeptical but felt this opportunity came my way for a reason. I interviewed with the company and got the job. They hired me on the spot! Yoga is something I have been passionate about for a long time. To have your passion acknowledged is incredible!
Soon after accepting the yoga position, I received an invitation to perform. If you don’t know, I’m also a singer and song writer. I’m still a bit insecure about my abilities, so it’s hard for me to perform in front of friends, let alone strangers. Then I realized you have to step outside of your comfort zone to make your dreams come true. To my surprise, I felt peace and comfort in my performance and look forward to doing it again.
After roughly two months of using The Happiness Planner, I still maintain an organized environment and make daily goals. I’m learning one of the keys to life is recognizing how it’s a journey; on a journey, you always discover new things and have new desires. When I find myself caught in a cycle of fear, I think of the greatest quote I’ve ever heard:
“And the day came, when the risk to remain tight in a bud, was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.”
It reminds me that fearing and avoiding growth and success is more damaging than fear of failure and remaining the same. As long as I stay the same, I will remain where I am and as I am.
I’ve lived with depression for most of my life. It kicked into overdrive afterthe death of one of my dearest friends. My life went from coming together to completely falling apart in a matter of months. Shortly after my loss, I caught the flu from my mom while caring for her. I lost my car due to financial distress, and my income was basically non-existent. I felt like I was in a vortex of darkness and was slipping deeper and deeper each day. My thoughts were erratic and sometimes suicidal.
I was at the end of my rope and ready to try anything! I decided to try therapy. I needed to reclaim my sanity, my peace, and my life. After a few sessions, I started to feel a little more connected to life. I still felt disconnected from, myself, my goals, and my ability to dream.
About a month ago, my best friend casually says, “I have something for you.” She went on to say, “I bought if for myself, but I’m pretty happy. I think it was really meant for you.” I thought to myself, “Goodness! Is my unhappiness that obvious?” I reluctantly agreed to accept the mysterious gift. The gift I received was The Happiness Planner. Next to friendship, it has been one of the greatest gifts I’ve ever received.
The pink cover glistened with gold lettering “The Happiness Planner”. Before even opening the book, just the thought of its possibilities excited me! I remember taking a deep breath, and thinking, “I have a lot of work cut out for me, but I’m ready.” At first glance, I was a little intimidated by the probing questionnaires. Questions like, “What makes you happy?” and “What makes you unhappy?” are things I never really thought about. You spend your life saying you want to be happy, but rarely ask yourself what makes you happy. After about a week of deep self-reflection, I felt like I was meeting myself for the first time. I had 100 days of self-discovery ahead of me, full of unlimited possibilities.
In the Happiness Planner, each week presents an opportunity to live with intention. Every day is a new chance to choose what inspires you and set goals accordingly. The applications of the book allowed me to become the organized person I always knew I was. I’m no longer trapped in the messy prison death grip depression had on me. In just a little over a month, I’ve maintained a clean environment, become prompt and aware of time. Also, I have never been so creative in my life.
I’m excited to see what the next 70 days have in store.